LeaLeaLea @LeaLeaLea@mastodon.lol

BIG LGBTQIA+ ART ANNOUNCEMENT

Throughout June I will be doing FREE digital portraits of LGBTQIA+ people in order to do something nice for queer people and to get better at art.

!!!!I will post every single portrait on my socials so if you want a portrait you have to be okay with that!!!!

I plan to get one portrait done per day but that is not a promise and depending on how many people will contact me I may not get to you.

#art #idahobit #pride

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#tattoo #moth #ink

Quick reminder

I still have open slots for free portraits for LGBTQ+ people during june

If you are interested check out my pinned toot for infos

The feminine urge to buy a rickenbacher bass after not playing bass for 8 years

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lPljNzas16s

In the bus to meet my family and I already spilled coffee on my skirt. I sense a rough day ahead of me

I guess what I want to say in this rant is that people can say whatever they want but their actions are the things we should care about.

Also fuck em all and I wish I was more confrontational back then.

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Which was coping because I was such a garbage person pre coming out, I am surprised anyone ever wanted to hang out with me back then in the first place.

And while I cant read minds I have the strong suspicion that all of my youth friends leaving me within 1-2 years of me coming out is related to that. They tried to be supportive and progressive but at the end of the day they did not practice what they preached.

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All these people said they were accepting, they were leftists and very progressive in their world views. But it seems not progressive enough to actually know a trans person.

I thought for years "maybe I am the problem, maybe I changed too much and they don´t like who I turned into as a person"

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It was harder for me to reach them with every passing week.
Then my drummer left because he "wants to focus on his other band"
and my guitarrist just ghosted me.

When an old friend from my youth wanted to contact me 3 years ago, she asked the singer of my first band for my number and he told her "oh he now goes by lea"
She still messaged me but not much.

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My Band at the time took the news really well.

My guitarrist at first thought I was a trans man and said "i dont mind that you dont have a cock". But when i told him "no its the other way around I am trans woman" he seemed perfectly cool.
We kept making music for like a year and a half or so. But slowly the contact to my guitarrist and drummer got less and less.

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Another friend was super supportive at first and helped me through a lot. Once I was done socially transitioning we met up again and I was past the phase where I looked like a "dude in a dress"(by which I mean I was past the phase in which I myself was ashamed of being me so I got more confident) I was comfortable in my presentation and I was happy with who I was. After that she stopped answering my calls.

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Later after my social transition was done we met up for lunch and I was excited to see her again after a year or so away. And there she said to me "but you are a gay man right?"

She had a kink for men dressing in womens clothing and could never see past it. So that´s when I told her "No" and left. And I never turned back.

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I wanna talk a little about my coming out as trans over 10 years ago

When I told the first person, she was thrilled. But asked why I had denied me being trans when she asked me 4 years earlier.

I did not yet realize how dumb this notion was and just brushed it off as I was just happy to have a person who knows who I am and is okay with that.

She helped me we with makeup, clothes and all that stuff and I was happy.

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