Phil. boosted

@anandamide I'm lucky that Robina is my teacher. one of my favorite quotes from her is "real practice doesn't start till you get both hands down in your own shit"
another is "you can have compassion for people and still not put up with their shit"

“Honey-child, listen to me,” says Courtin, softening. “Our trouble is we can’t cope with our own suffering or the suffering out there, so we just want to make it all go away. We can’t. All we can do is do our best in this crazy insane asylum called planet Earth.”

xxx

theguardian.com/world/2022/sep

@Edent I had similar fears, as apparently a lot of people did, because some vast members came out to assure people there was a plan. I'm hoping writers have learned, and am trusting them for now

Fwiw I feel similarly, and I regard it as the best TV show I've watched all year. Gorgeous, tense, and funny. And the finale is *intense*

Nudity 

I have a cheap hotel room and a mirror and I'm not afraid to use them

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Body stuff, thirst trap 

@Orion thanks, being told I'm definitely being ridiculous helps. I'm aware I'm circling a nasty body-issue space but have enough about me to be questioning my thinking / perception, and it helps to get external nudges

Also that's ridiculous, you're furry and hot. I want a certain look for myself, and I do like that in others, but even on a shallow physical level I like lots more too!

Body stuff, thirst trap 

@bootblackcub I'm probably spending too much time on fitness YouTube

Also I have nothing going on in my life rn other than work and gym so guess it's understandable I've become a bit obsessive

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"DMs are like tops: they can be annoying, but there's not enough of them to go around and they're vital to the process, so we have to be nice to them." - @titanpup , speaking nothing but truths.

Body stuff, thirst trap 

This was me yesterday after a workout. The lighting in the gym always picks out my abs but they're not normally that visible, and I have a definite roll of fat on my hips and back, plus my pecs still sag, which frustrates me

God even writing that while looking at that image makes me realise I'm being ridiculous

Am I being ridiculous?

I'm being ridiculous. I took the selfie cos I'm amused with how jacked I look. But even so I see all the bits I wish looked better

Ffs

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Body stuff 

Me, Dec 2021: 'OK I'm back at the gym but the focus is LIFTING, not looks, I'm not getting caught up in that nonsense again'

Me, Sep 2022: [googling 'body fat percentage example photos']

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Ukpol 

Think the political news in the UK has just broke me. Cannot process. Viewing it all with the bafflement of a remembered dream, or the ramblings of a deluded friend. Lizz Truss PM? Sure. And my neighbor Enid is chancellor, I guess. A tub of marmite now education sec. Whatever.

Phil. boosted

As a person of technology, this was a very confusing headline

Phil. boosted

@waf @a_hungry_fool it is a VERY good look on you, imo, but so is sports kit

Sex 

Lol actually the more prosaic explanation is that I've induced a very low, non pathological hypomania

I mean, we'll see how it goes I guess?

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Sex 

I've become a lot more direct, too. Something has definitely just... Changed for me. My LSD doses sit on the cusp of microdose and just pleasantly noticeable, taken fortnightly. I'm just... Pleased how this is going rn. And since the doses are so low I have enough LSD to carry this on for a year

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Sex 

Anyhow I think this might be a Challenge Size Dick so we'll see how I get on

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Sex 

I've gone from barely any sex interest for well over a decade to "yesterday arranged a shag in Birmingham for today while my mate will be at the gym". Honestly pretty wild.

This is all ever since an LSD microdose session a month ago and I'm minded to think it's not coincidental. It's like something's shifted inside me (😏)

Sex 

[sigh]

Yes but I'm not, am I? I'm very much a bottom, as my profile makes *very clear*

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