Anna @binanna@mastodon.lol

*attempting to sit up straight without back support* ow oh fuck I literally have no core muscles

In reference to my meltdown yesterday: I got back into therapy recently and my counselor got me set up to do an ADHD evaluation. This was very good news. Then I heard back from my insurance that it isn't covered and it's OVER $1500 out of pocket which is horrifying. I got very upset bc I really think I do have ADHD and I think getting treated for it would decrease the frequency of me fucking up my life and idk when if ever I'd even be able to afford to get the test

I'm sure this won't make sense to a lot of you I just needed to ✨express✨

Also yes I am a music nerd, I have hid this for several months but I have exposed myself here. Will I post more music content in the future??? I cannot speak to literally anything future me does (that bitch is emotionally unstable and impulsive af) but maybe!

I've been telling this story for a couple years of my old music theory teacher telling us a I-iii chord progression Doesn't Sound Good and then playing a repeating I-iii on the piano and it was the INTRO TO HALLELUJAH, a very good and well regarded song so obviously he was wrong

And I JUST REALIZED Hallelujah's intro is actually I-vi and idk how I fucked that up (I could play it so I knew the chords???) and it's fucking with my mind. I am embarrassed. I told this to so many people

Genuinely not sure I exist anymore. Like physically I do. But psychologically? She empty

incredibly, dramatically, horrifyingly depressed

Starting 2021 with a raging migraine, very on brand for me ✨

Ooo fun, time to play my favorite game; "how long will my migraine last this time?"

(spoiler the answer is Too Long)

Just an American not wanting to go to bed tonight because I am STRESSED THE FUCK OUT OH MY GOD